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I may be an old-fashioned artist who may never color anything in, but I'm very dedicated to my craft. ^^




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  • Mood: Anger
On August 20th, 1890; One hundred and twenty-five years ago yesterday, an organic diamond escaped a suffocating and binding womb of rocks. On that day, a lonely and ingenious life began. 

Raised and brought up in isolation, left fatherless at the age of three. Raised most by his mother of dwindling health and sanity, his only positive influence was a wealthy and seasoned grandfather, who enjoyed spinning stories to tell. A vital and invaluable rock to his own wobbling mental safety.

Howard Philips Lovecraft is by far, one of my oldest and most beloved inspirations of creative fiction. But I also feel a deep melancholic connection with the pale, gaunt enigma, who died in poverty during his prime, at the age of 46. During his lifetime, scarcely anybody had read his works, save for a few small audiences of his published poems and short-stories. Even still, even after his death, he remained invisible and obscured from history, less even than a ghost. Only now, nearly a century after his death, has his brilliant writing become infamous. 

It's painful to admit, but I see very much of myself in this lonely, sensitive, brilliant man. 

We both seek an escape from the dreadful reality of our lives through fiction.
We both have at least one parent who sullied the peace of our lives and minds by descending into madness and addiction.
We both are socially and sexually damaged because of it.
We both have an affinity for smoking ourselves back to sleep after an awful nightmare. ( Thankfully I don't do opium tho, fuck )
And we both hate 99.8 % of all living things.

I may not be able to ever meet you, thank you, or even visit your grave, but death is a thin veil across time for those who make their mark.
And though the great Cthulhu, who waits dreaming in the sea-city of R'lyeh, he found his.

With only a moment's glance through fragile human eyes, I can read your legacies, the world inside your mind. Art, writing and prose bind us together, across life and death, across space / across time. May the epochs of times long passed and present here and now be forever intertwined through memory / through you. 

If I ever had the chance to meet you, I would ask first to hug you. Then, try not to sob as I told you how sorry I was. For all you had been through, all that I will no doubt undergo in time. How negligent the human race is to it's wise men, it's storytellers. How eager it is to cast them aside. The hubris of man a reassuring lie we tell ourselves endlessly, the truth of our cosmic insignificance persisting still, as an ignored fact.

I'm so sorry it had to be this way.
I'm sorry I could never know you.


You would have been a wonderful friend.
  • Mood: Neglect

  • Mood: Anger

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porkal Featured By Owner May 31, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
:iconborealeplz: there IS NO TIME TO BE LOST
1AmTheIT Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Would you be interested in an Irken roleplay?
SaintHeartwing Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconbirthdaycakeplz:
bkf9 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015  Student Interface Designer
happy birthday!
TheArtOfSilentShout Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2015   Traditional Artist
Thanks so much for the fave! Awesome gallery btw! Very dynamic, well drawn characters :]
DeustisOfShadows Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
/) ^/////^ (\ Baaaaaawwww, thank you so much~! Though I'm unworthy of your praise, your art is too fantastic..!!
TheArtOfSilentShout Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015   Traditional Artist
You are too worthy of my praise!! -bangs fist on table-

Thank you so much! ^^ 
Luca72 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav and I love that you have a SHODAN collection! Sorry to hear about your troubles but it sounds like things are smoothed over for now
DeustisOfShadows Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
For now, at least. But thanks for the support, and thanks again for the wonderful tribute to SystemShock. Gorgeous, really. I loved it's re-invention of the original, and SHODAN's cold, black stare. Me and my friend agreed it would make exellent box art for SS3, if they ever f*cking decided to make it.
Luca72 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I picked up Alien Isolation recently and it finally convinced me a modern take on SS2 could turn out well. But even a hungry xenomorph doesn't scare me as much as SHODAN
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