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I may be an old-fashioned artist who may never color anything in, but I'm very dedicated to my craft. ^^

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Yes, yes, yes YES!!! You heard it right. Now that I've got a scanner and a paypal account up n' running, I can finally dust off the cobwebs and open shop! 


I'll be using DeviantART as my fanfic/SFW gallery. But for all NSFW requests, the kind you might not wanna make with your door wide open, meet me here if you haven't already:

www.furaffinity.net/user/big-d…

Whether you just want a drawing of your character, a special context, a minicomic, a referance sheet or something a little naughty, please leave a comment and let me know! : 3


My prices are approximately the following:</i> *depending on detail of the character



:bulletblack: Quick 1-2 hour sketch (includes facial busts, chibis) : $1 to $5 dollars 
:bulletblack: Day-long 3-5 hour sketch: $10 - $15 dollars
:bulletblack: 2-3-day 12-15 hour drawing with inked lines: $20 - $30 dollars
:bulletblack: 4 day to week long drawing with detailed shading and backdrop: $40 - $60 dollars
:bulletblack: Sequencial comics: $10 dollars a page

I really, really need the money, guys. Especially now. So do a fellow deviant a favor and stop by. If I don't get it done immediately, I won't mind if you poke and prod me to remember and get it done quicker. 
  • Mood: High
So much for april troll's day.  Then again nobody really reads my journals these days...

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  • Mood: High
3.30.15

I don't know how many of you bother to keep up on getting to know me, but I'll clear the air by admitting that I often have trouble sleeping. In addition to this, if you follow me, you might already know that I am epileptic. If I don't take six pills a day, two in the morning, four at night, I'm liable to experience neurological malfunction. Starting with a dampening, foggy sensation that clouds my ability to think fluently, or even dream. After a certain point, I can't even hear my own thoughts and my head becomes a vacant space. Further malfunction without medication can put me at risk to momentary blackouts, lasting anywhere from 30 seconds to 5 minutes. 

Point is, I'm used to living with predicting unpredictability, and I know what missing time is like. However, despite this, despite ALL of this...

Nothing could have prepared me for what happened that night. Not last night, but two nights before.


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The time was approximately 4 in the afternoon. I had been up for about 3 hours. I was scarcely dressed in my sweatpants, slippers and morning robe as I ate my brunch of cereal and scrambled eggs when a headache that I had not woken up with suddenly kicked in. I took an Advil, which seemed to do a fat lot of good. By the time I was done, eating, I was too distracted by my headache to watch TV or go online. It was pretty god damn irritating, I tell you. And by that point, I was beginning to sniffle a bit and had to breathe through my mouth - my sinuses were beginning to get clogged up. I didn't know why at the time, I haven't been sick for about a month. But in addition to the headache, I was really, really starting to feel light-headed. So I went into the bathroom, and let some water begin to run and heat up for a shower. I live in the armpit of Washington state, it can take a while for a shower to be ready. So with a minute or two to spare, I tried recalling if I had taken my morning meds. I didn't know whether it was the headache or what, but I couldn't remember. Which is never a good sign. So, as the water gradually heated, I made way into the kitchen and took two of my pills.  They usually take a minute or two to kick in, but they always work. Now with my headache at an all-time high, my dog starts barking. Now, my dog barks at EVERYTHING. I have one of those tiny, yapping-breed dogs. But this wasn't a passing bark, either. Oh, how I wish it was. Anyways, not wanting my annoying-ass dog to annoy the shit out of whoever was at the door, I picked her up and put her out in the backyard and shut her out there. God DAMN that high-pitched bark on top of my headache fucking hurt like shit. But before I could even turn towards the front of the house to see what the commotion was about, I heard two knocks at the front door. 

Two knocks.

That's the last thing I remember.

There is no recollection of time passing. No darkness to experience in missing time. The transition is instantaneous. The next thing I remember feeling was... coldness. Then, slowly. My senses returned one at a time. I remember hearing my dog barking again, though in a less-alarmed, more distressed tone. She was right next to me. I was face-down in the overgrowth of my back lawn. My headache was gone, but the sun was down and it was pitch-black out. Very late. Very cold out. And though I didn't know why... I was... Naked.

Cold, confused, covered in grass and dirt, I cautiously made my way inside. Thinking to take the shower I never got to. But when I opened the door, I found the shower was still running. The water was absolutely freezing before I turned it off. Stupidly, the first thing on my mind was; 'Well shit, that's definitely gonna show on the rent.' In the end, I spend the next half hour dabbing myself down with a cold, wet washcloth. When I noticed what time it was, it was 12:56. 

12:56. pm.
Almost one in the morning.

From 4:00 to 12:56 pm.
I had lost 8, almost 9 entire hours. The entire day was gone.

Upon discovering this fact, I pondered, and realized the dangerous plausibility of what might have just occurred.

Rushing into the bathroom again, I franticly inspected my reflection from several angles. Noticing my headache was gone, and my sinuses were bone dry, I looked inside of my nostril. Dried evidence of a recent nosebleed from my right nostril. Padding down my skin in excessive detail, I felt something else. Four hard, sharp lumps. Harder and denser than scabs, 2 on my upper neck, just below where my spine met my skull - and another 2 on my lower back. Those two were much harder to see, but they felt exactly the same.

I couldn't sleep the next night - but eventually passed out for nearly an entire day after that. In my... 'dream', I was able to see things differently. I don't think my last slumber brought dreams, at all. I only wish something as benign as a nightmare came. What came instead, was painfully vivid. I remember those who knocked. The black-eyed children.

The ascent.
The sterile, seamless hallways.
The paralysis, the table.
The pitch-black stares. The dispassionate procedure.
The gargled static of a thousand voices when they looked me in the eye.

It all came back to me. 

It's never just once, though. I've known about this phenomenon long enough to know that they tag us. Use the chemical gateways in our nervous system as ways of following our minds and cells. This is just the beginning. 

I know they're coming back.
  • Mood: Anxious
I mean, honestly? I'm  always working on like, three projects at once. So like Guillermo del toro, I end up spreading myself too thin and much less than intended gets accomplished. But since Blood-sport seems to like, NEVER be fucking happening, which I wish it WOULD, I've since preoccupied myself with making a new story. An original storyline in webcomic form, based in conspiracy theorist lore. NOT a fanfiction of any sorts. 


But I wonder, would anyone even give a tossing shit if I posted it? Would anyone even notice or care? Deviantart's really gone to shit recenlt, and I feel like whatever semblance of  a fanbase I've ever had went the way of the trilobite with it. It's really discouraging when I only get one, maaaaaybe two comments on each journal or deviation I submit, and each of them have very, very little to say. And this is a big project. Huge. If I spend all my time and energy on it and it goes entirely unseen, I don't know what else would be left for me on this fucking website. Fuck me, I wish Blood-sport would come back already. That was something I was prepared for. And compared to this, Blood-sport would just be a casual side-project. OCTs are much easier than multiple-chapter-length super-arcs. 

Anyways...

If you want to hear the story of a dying man, riddled with labors, sadness and transcendence of perspective...
If you want a story about alien abduction, cyberpunk dystopia, government conspiracy, secret weapon testing, the Illuminati...

A story that ISN'T 'Trying Human'


Then I suggest you stay tuned, for an Underwhelming Truth. 


But you know, if not, I could always just fuck off and go back to doing that Halo fanfic I never got around to... X__X Whatever.
  • Mood: Neglect
Yes, yes, yes YES!!! You heard it right. Now that I've got a scanner and a paypal account up n' running, I can finally dust off the cobwebs and open shop! 


I'll be using DeviantART as my fanfic/SFW gallery. But for all NSFW requests, the kind you might not wanna make with your door wide open, meet me here if you haven't already:

www.furaffinity.net/user/big-d…

Whether you just want a drawing of your character, a special context, a minicomic, a referance sheet or something a little naughty, please leave a comment and let me know! : 3


My prices are approximately the following:</i> *depending on detail of the character



:bulletblack: Quick 1-2 hour sketch (includes facial busts, chibis) : $1 to $5 dollars 
:bulletblack: Day-long 3-5 hour sketch: $10 - $15 dollars
:bulletblack: 2-3-day 12-15 hour drawing with inked lines: $20 - $30 dollars
:bulletblack: 4 day to week long drawing with detailed shading and backdrop: $40 - $60 dollars
:bulletblack: Sequencial comics: $10 dollars a page

I really, really need the money, guys. Especially now. So do a fellow deviant a favor and stop by. If I don't get it done immediately, I won't mind if you poke and prod me to remember and get it done quicker. 
  • Mood: High

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SaintHeartwing Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconbirthdaycakeplz:
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bkf9 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015  Student Interface Designer
happy birthday!
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TheArtOfSilentShout Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2015   Traditional Artist
Thanks so much for the fave! Awesome gallery btw! Very dynamic, well drawn characters :]
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DeustisOfShadows Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
/) ^/////^ (\ Baaaaaawwww, thank you so much~! Though I'm unworthy of your praise, your art is too fantastic..!!
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Luca72 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav and I love that you have a SHODAN collection! Sorry to hear about your troubles but it sounds like things are smoothed over for now
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DeustisOfShadows Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
For now, at least. But thanks for the support, and thanks again for the wonderful tribute to SystemShock. Gorgeous, really. I loved it's re-invention of the original, and SHODAN's cold, black stare. Me and my friend agreed it would make exellent box art for SS3, if they ever f*cking decided to make it.
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Luca72 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I picked up Alien Isolation recently and it finally convinced me a modern take on SS2 could turn out well. But even a hungry xenomorph doesn't scare me as much as SHODAN
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ProjectHalfbreed Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday Duo~
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porkal Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Artist


hyenas 
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